ano....................

asssalamualaikum..
 
ano...you know..since i was born.. i never knew..that i was such a burden to them..really..
weak body..not really good..

ano...i think,maybe i should die..why??
because i'm such a burden to them to take care of me...since i'm not a very healthy child..
i have a serious disease..that cannot be cured..only by eat medicine..i have a very rare one..
i give up..it become worse..worse..every time...
because i had give up for my life..

i think..why Allah choose me face this test actually??
i cannot bear,endure it..this is too much....too much for me...
i cannot do it!! :'(

i think like that..everytime i remember that..i remember...
you know what i remember??
i remember..why He do that to me...
then i smile :) a wide smile :D
"you will never know your level of iman..taqwa..until I test you..
the test that i will not make feel burden..hard to make it..
maybe ayah from al-quran?? i not remember.. =='

ohh..then..i think..this test is not that hard..to me..
there are someone else..that had to endure the test Allah had given to them for such a long time..
that they can build such patience to bear with the test..why i can't?? :)

someday.. i can go through with it..INSYA'ALLAH ^^

anooo...there was a time..i watch this anime..one of it..i think..
why is it so slow..thats boring..
not at all i should watch this ..
i should stop watch!!
but..
nandemonaiyo..
i could not stop myself from watch it ^^
from that show, i get something..something that make me realizze..
i'm not that uselesss..a burden person..not to themm..not to my family..
they still take care of me..with patient..a hard time..to endure it..
really difficult..
i don't think..other person..human that never face this thing..know it..
only  the chosen by HIM..really know about it..
HE KNOW THE BEST FOR US ^^

i feel really2 grateful..for what they have done to me.
i'm really grateful.. i want to say thank you..for their support..
to encourage me..to live happily and be grateful for what you have :)

live is such a happy thing..alive make you feel great...you're not useless..
you're just a lowly servant in front of him ^^

HE KNOW YOU ^_____^ be grateful..HE REALLY LOVE US..all of uS!!! ^_^

so..live happily..with everyone..someone you love..feel happy with..that you can become yourself in front of them..just being yourself..do not change..just stay like you're always do..

because..thats you.. love yourself..then you can love the others..


there are still someone that still love you..know about you..remember you..and be with you..

always..itsumo.. ^^


REMEMBER HIM(ALLAH) too..because..He the one that love you..than your parents,siblings,friends..HIS LOVE CANNOT BE MEASURED!!SUBHANALLAH >.>

REMEMBER RASULULLAH S.A.W..because PROPHET MUHAMMAD s.a.w.. love us..although we are not yet born..HE LOVE US..LOVES TOO MUCH ^__^ IKHWAN..



LOVE YOURSELF OKAY?? :) :D ^_^

>>>>anime..that i take ibrah from it..because it relate to my life..too much..ignore the other thing..just take the positive..good point..okay ^^





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